June 2016

June is a big month for my family. Let me explain…

This is a big month for birthdays; Happy birthday to my mom. Throughout my life, mom, you were always my biggest supporter. You were there for me through the good and the bad. Through the bruises and skinned knees; you made sure that I always knew that you were there loving and taking care of me. I hope you have a great birthday. I love you Mom.

Brian and baby Amber, June 1991

Brian and baby Amber, June 1991

Also, it’s my daughter Amber’s birthday. Amber, you have overcome so much adversity and not only survived, but thrived. Every day I am so proud of you. Each year that passes, on your birthday, I think back to that very first time I looked into your eyes proud as only a father could be. You were crying. My heart melted. I said to you, “Hi little girl. I’m your daddy.” You stopped crying and looked up at me. You captured my heart. I will forever be the very first man to fall in love with you. Remember that. Happy birthday my baby girl, I hope all of your dreams come true.

Happy birthday to my aunt Janice. So many times you were there for me to confide in and to offer guidance and support. You have always loved me like I was your own little boy. I love you and miss you. Have a wonderful birthday.

I also want to mention Lisa’s mom. Her birthday is this month. She left us too soon. Hope you are proud. Happy birthday, you are loved and missed.

All tired out - Joe and Brian catching a few z's!

All tired out – Joe and Brian catching a few z’s!

It’s also Father’s Day and I want to acknowledge my father. He keeps me grounded. There are a lot of ups and downs with the legal work and he always helps keep things in perspective. My father sets a good example to me for how to be a good man. I love you, dad.

I want to acknowledge that this month my niece graduated from high school and is preparing to go to college. We are all very proud of her. She’s talented, smart and beautiful. Congratulations. I know that you will go off into this world and do amazing things.

Last month there was an amazing get together with my family and my attorney, Jen (and Ed!)Everyone met at Lisa’s house and had an afternoon of good food and good company. It was a nice opportunity for my family to come together and get caught up on what’s been going on with the legal work. Everyone had the chance to ask questions and to share all of the incredible information and new evidence that has been uncovered by the legal team. Jen, the captain of this ship, had a chance to talk a little strategy and to explain what her plans are we go forward. Although Jen has been working tirelessly around the clock, there is still a lot to be done. She is still doggedly compiling investigations, digging through medical research and intently preparing arguments. Everyone is getting anxious and looking forward to getting the opportunity to present our case. However, we have 100% faith in Jen and know that she is the only one who can bring me home. I got to call them and while I was on speakerphone, had a chance to tell everyone how much I love them.

Sunday dinner with Venilde, Lisa, Joe, Mike, Joyce, Jen, Amber, Brenda and Scott May, 2016

Sunday dinner with Venilde, Lisa, Joe, Mike, Joyce, Jen, Amber, Brenda and Scott
May, 2016

As for me…I continue to take things one day at a time. For now, it’s all about survival. In spite of everyone’s support, my removal from the NEADS Dog program remains unchanged. Although I am still heartbroken and miss the dogs every day, I sometimes get to see them in passing. The other day I got to see Daphne, the puppy that would have been mine. She was adorable and is doing well in her training.

I need to stay focused and positive. I have so much love and support from everyone and feel it in my heart. I can’t say enough about Lisa. She works very hard taking care of me and everyone else, helping Jen and organizing the team. I couldn’t survive without her. She’s my rock. She’s my hero. She’s my best friend. She’s my everything. I am so lucky to have her. I love you, Lisa. And my parents, they visit me consistently every week so that I can look into their eyes and feel their love and support. My little sister, Brenda is ever vigilant on her Facebook page making connections and gathering support. To my aunts, uncles, cousins and family friends, you are all amazing and your love and support is never overlooked. And to everyone else out there who shares a post, leaves a comment, or talks about our struggle; you are all appreciated and remind me every day of what a lucky man I truly am. I know in my heart that we will be successful. I know that the truth will come out and it is what will set me free. I know that for now, all I have to do is survive; to get though each day; and to remember, every day brings us One Day Closer…

4 thoughts on “June 2016

  1. Randy Estrella

    Well my longtime friend As I read your post tears fill my eyes but your positive attitude and strength doesn’t surprise me. From that first day I met you when we were around 14 or 15 I knew the strong man that you would become. So as I read I am not surprised to hear your strength in your words. It is wonderful how you thank your family and friends and know we are all here praying for you. I know I will see you again as a free man, I can feel it in my heart. I look forward to that day we can go for a drive like we used to as care free kids and just talk . One more thing my friend I hear all your thanks to family and friends but dont underestimate yourself. Not many people could have over come what you have so far in your life. Your an amazing guy and one of my best friends. I miss you everyday brother.

  2. Joyce Coute

    My dear son, you are the bravest of all – could any of us have endured what you have? I doubt we could have and come out a finer human being as you have become. Your sensitivity, kindness, love and strength are an invisible but very evident banner that you wear. Of course we should not forget that your birthday is also in the month of June, a very special day in the life of a nineteen year old girl who I also fell in love with the little boy I call son. I am very proud of you and love you so much. Waiting for another special day when you come home to us all. Love Mom

  3. Alda Ronan

    We too, are so lucky to have you in our lives, your strength and will to fight this battle is amazing, keep fighting and I know your will be a free man soon. Love you and miss you Auntie Alda

  4. John Nardizzi

    Keep on, Brian. “The heart of a father is the masterpiece of nature.”

    — Abbé Prévost (Manon Lescaut)


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